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TRUTH OF DREAMS
So many years, I suddenly realized that the dream of my own is just to break itself.
I say that "I live for dreams" while the truth is I am myself a dream breaker.
My only dream is to experience once all the things I'm curious about. To be common, it's to travel, to meet, then, to leave.
Once I dreamed about the pure atmosphere of a church while the first time I steped in it I got a feeling called disappointment by the all around LCD TVs, cameras, electric fans and crowded people who found their joy of just gaining a seat. "This is not a church as I imagined", I said to myself and left through the side door in the midst of a Christmas Night Missa.
Well, never mind, it just passed by. And the only thing I wanted to do is to experience, not to be a christan. And then, mission finished.
I'll never settle down, I'll never stay in one place for a long time and I'll never do a thing continuously but pursue breaking my dreams, I mean, making them come true, haha.
# by punadsmile | 2007-01-13 01:51 | 自由に話し
Humanity showed by blood
Humanity showed by blood
Comment on the movie Battle Royale

BR(Battle Royale)is an unprecedented originality, cause no one could think out such a cruel story and let a group of teenagers to act it. In fact, what does BR want to show is that, as simple as those teenagers’ thought, something about humanity. But this time it is blood that is used to show.
No many reasons as well as words, just as teachers use to throw a piece of chalk onto a noisy student’s head, but here, the piece of chalk changed into a knife. The knife finished a first child’s life and declared clearly that BR had started. Perhaps it was too fast to make the audience as well as the students in the movie understand the fact of the game at once, so the second victim appeared soon. The reason why he should die was similar to the earlier one, the teacher didn’t like them, but it was more dramatic: when he knew he would die of the bomb in the digital necklace, he tried to call help, but no one wanted to help. They, who always loved playing with him in the past days, pulled him away with scare. At last, in front of the hesitation of his best friend, the necklace bombed. Everywhere spilled blood witnessed one thing: everyone is frightened of death and before death, most people could only think of themselves.
The cold face of the teacher mirrored the cruelty of this world which seemed to be peaceful. According to the BR rule, every student could get some food, a map, a compass, and a piece of weapon. What is funny that someone could get a real weapon such as a gun, but someone could only get a paper fan. But it is the truth, the reality of our world, because there’s hardly fair in our society. Someone have the ability to win while someone even doesn’t have strength to protect himself. But the BR world seemed to be more cruel and ridiculous: every student must try to kill others in 3 days until there’s only one survivor, if not, all would die.
Killing began at the dark night. A fat boy who was too frightened to keep his mind clear shot a powerless girl. However powerless the girl was, she was still a threaten, a life threaten, to that fat boy. When the fat boy was ready to shot again to another boy, he fell accidentally and it made chance to the other boy to shoot him. The fat one died. It’s better to say that the fat boy was killed by himself, for the self-preservation belongs to all kinds of animals.
Then the speed became fast, a group of students captured a hooligan which had been forced to quit school. The boy was so unlucky that he only got a paper fan as his weapon. But his eyes were full of murderous look and he seized a gun from one then killed all the people at present without hesitation. What is sad is that the boy wanted to join the game himself just because he felt this game was exiting. Maybe to a zero man, it is very easy to gamble with his life. But to that group, they’d like to waste their time to show off about their luck which made them die finally.
Of course there was someone who chose to give up: two lovers who didn’t want to kill anyone and be killed by anyone, so they turned to suicide.
The story went on.
A girl who didn’t want to “just stay and wait to be killed” picked up a butcher knife and killed whoever she met. She was just struggling. Maybe she should get some mercy when she were to die. She was shot a lot but she tried to stand up again and again, she didn’t want to die, she wanted to use her last energy to fight, to resist, she never thought she liked killing but she had to. So is the reality, many people just want to survive, so they have to survive on other’s body.
But there were also someone who didn’t be affected by the sudden change. A girl runner who still keep the habit to practice running every morning seemed to live in her own world. Then came a bad boy(I’m sorry that I could remember their names)who still had the mood to think about that girl runner and a boy who was loved secretly by the girl runner as well. In their mind, they nearly forgot that they were on a death island and what they cared about was love. Teenager’s love maybe is not so important, especially when they were going to die. So the girl runner killed the bad boy by self-protection but was hurt another one. What’s lucky is that she could die beside the boy she loved and she used her last breath to tell him the true thought hidden in her heart for a long time. The boy who actually loved another girl got a GPRS device, he found out the girl he loved but was shot by her scare. The boy didn’t blamed, his last sentence was, go quickly, someone is coming! It’s a pity that the coming one was no one but boy who loved killing. The love game ended. Compared with death, the trouble of love or any other little thing of our world is far more beautiful then anything, isn’t it?
The saddest death should belong to some girl who hid in a light tower. They were just like a family, they were kind to each other, they didn’t know how to survive, their only wish was to die in the last minute together. But all is ruined by a feeling called hate. One of the girls witnessed that the boy(Nanahara) saved by another killed her boyfriend by mistake, so what she wanted to do was to kill Nanahara for her boyfriend. She was so weak and that’s the only chance she could do revenge. She put poison into his food but the food was eaten by another girl mistakenly. She was too scared to tell the truth while other girls were suspecting each other and shooting. As a punishment, they were all gone. And she jump from the light tower with guilt. Nanahara was left too many pain and misunderstanding.
There were also some students who had tried to fight against the fate.3 boys hidden in a empty factory were always trying to break the rule. One of them was good at computer and he tried thousands of times to damage the system of the BR office and the other two, made some bomb to bomb the office. They never gave up until the Azrael came. Life is unfair, they nearly succeeded, but it is life, just life. But one thing good was that that killer’s eyes, the one full of murderous look were hurt by their bomb.
So many people died and how about our main actor Nanahara? He could not die. In fact it didn’t matter who was the main actor/ress because everyone’s death was showing a part of our world’s reality which is naked and blooded. Nanahara, he was the bridge of those facts and a spectator, a accepter. He had to accept the truth that his mother abandoned him, he had to witness his father’s suicide and had to trust no adult. What weapon he got was a pan top, which was not as weak as a paper fan but could not hurt anyone as well. Maybe Nanahara was lucky enough, many girls in his class liked him(so he was saved by the girls in the light tower), and the winner of the game 3 years ago seemed to care about him. However he was just a normal person as many of us, I mean us, live with both luck and unluck but still alive. So was the girl who was protected by Nanahara, normal girl.
BR is bloody, every blood in it show a kind of humanity. It’s not far from us, it’s inside us. We could make a simple story to tell it but it is not powerful. So born the BR, it really made us think deeply.
In the final scene, the teacher allured Nanahara to shoot him with a water gun, and he replied a phone call comically. The phone call was from his family, they were blaming him for not going home often. He replied, I will never come again then died. And the winner of the game 3 years ago, he save Nanahara and the girl, died with smile because he finally understood why his girlfriend choose to die in the last minute 3 years ago. The last two death were different from all before, they were not bloody, they were quite normal as in many other films.
And as the good-bye scene, there’re two dreams made by Nanahara and the girl. They were very peaceful with foggy sight. Maybe the fog could wash the blood before.
# by punadsmile | 2006-08-26 02:20 | 自由に話し
I'm being with myself
Taxi driver listening to the Shaw Bernard
Basketball players running under the pale moonlight
Crazy Japanese shounting in the noisy Rz'69
I'm being with myself

Wrong bus took me to the unkonwn place
Right taxi made me get explanation chance
My friend had a party to celebrate her birth
I'm being with myself

Food rested to drive away my hunger
In the killing game I acted the murderer
No punishment cause I didn't know the ruler
I'm being with myself

No bus to share cause I've moved away
No schedule to fit cause I am far away
No one to be with cause there's no way
I'm being with myself

Darkness penetrating the old deep quiet block
Feculent river cutting my way forward
Up and down exploring I am alone
I'm being with myself
# by punadsmile | 2006-06-04 15:19 | 自由に話し
I can not sleep
I don't like love stories cause love stories are always too simple, they even make me doubt whether the directors are adult.
It's too hard to love s.o.
It's too painful to love s.o.
It's too bitter to love s.o.
It's too tiring to love s.o.
# by punadsmile | 2006-05-13 02:40 | 自由に話し
さよなら、こいびとよ
Today my high schoolmate came to my college.
She's...er... maybe one of the girls i love most, a very lovely girl.
I was intend to tell her s.t. true, but i didn't, in the end.
She's the first one i wanna tell.
cause i feel s.t. can not be described with words.
I'm such an impulsive person, decide what i should love easily... but i'm still a self-distrustful one.
Maybe it's the best way: let it come gently then let it go tenderly, without any words, at least it's beautiful.
I'm sorry and さよなら、こいびとよ...
# by punadsmile | 2006-05-12 23:48 | 自由に話し
DON'T
If you think you should
Then you shouldn't
If you wanna be alone
Then leave me alone
If you wanna put me into your to-do list
Then ignore me at all please
I need your miss
But I don't need your scheduled care


"Hello I love you won't you tell me your name?"


5/11 From schedule book
# by punadsmile | 2006-05-12 23:12 | 自由に話し
Everyting is over and my life restarts
My heart was always full of hesitation, suspicion and every kind of strange thought, I couldn't make myself calm down. But it was just WAS.
Thanks to the song Keren Ann "Not Goning Anywhere", it lets me believe that i'm truely the lucky one and i should cherish everyting i have got without any bad thoughts.
The couple i mentioned in my last two entries was together again, it seemed that my worry was a waste.
Now eveeything is over and my life restarts.
# by punadsmile | 2006-05-03 17:41 | 自由に話し
Life is beautiful, Love is beautiful PLUS
Something I should add 2 my last entry...
I don't mean it's wrong 2 fall in love with another one... cause it's 2 hard 2 comment on love... But then... She can't lie 2 him!! And what's even more 过分, she wanted me to lie for her, 2 him, his BF: one day she decided 2 go out with her lover(A drop of sweat... lover and BF...), she asked me 2 answer "She's out with a girl friend." to her BF if he calls. And, of course, he called. But I lied for her... I'm afraid that if i told him the truth, he would rush 2 them immediately, he's such a hotheaded guy! And that lover, oh my god, goes everywhere with a long knife...
I fell in deep guilty.... But I can't help...
太过分了。。。她在伤害我。。。
# by punadsmile | 2006-03-18 07:58 | 自由に話し
life is beautiful and love is beautiful
I believe that life is beautiful and love is beautiful. But is that true? Should I still stick to believing it?
……
Yesterday night, one of my roommates (she sleeps right above me) was making a phone call until 3 a.m. The other girls in our room complained about her disturbing their sleep in the morning, of course, I didn’t sleep well, either. But what really shocked me most is who she spoke with: not her BF but a man she knew from the internet only for 2 days. They dated yesterday afternoon and talked… e… nearly about love… and what’s 过分 is that she went to that man’s home this morning before 6, she said she wanted to share the first sunshine of today with him… what I must pick up is that the girl has got a BF who loves her so much and they always stick together.
Even though I do not appreciate the way they love, I think it’s nice that they love each other: she’s very very作, but he seems to be able to endure her all the time. For instance, when it’s just the beginning of last term, he gave her a telephone number, it should belong to a friend of hers, but he made a mistake, it was wrong. When she called that number, the voice from the other side sounded rudely, so she got angry to him and even said that she wanted to 分手 with him. The boy phoned her, she didn’t want to reply, so he phoned us, the whole room spent nearly the whole night to help him. Couples of hours later, the problem solved… and this winter they met each other’s parents and even wanted to engage.
That’s why I puzzled. The girl came back with a happy smile, we joked to her: your BF is in trouble now! She answered: yes! He’s in trouble now!
What on earth she wanted to show off? Yes, she’s pretty, but it is not the right way to show off her beauty! Or she’s such an easy girl? And what’s the meaning that she keeps telling us she can’t live without her BF?
I don’t understand love but I hold hope for love cause I always believe that love is beautiful. But her example… confused me…
i keep his promises and temporarily don't believe it in order not 2 make itself hurt me....
# by punadsmile | 2006-03-12 13:15 | 自由に話し
I should say sorry for “Schindler’s List”
I heard about the film “Schindler’s List” long ago, but I never tried to have it a look cause I know it talks about the war. I do not like the war, do not like a serious movie about the war even though many many people recommend it. And the biggest problem is: I mistook it. Cause its theme is about the war and the name “Schindler” sounds just like “Hitler”, so I thought it must be a very cruel film, and the list, every name logged on it would have an extreme deathful destiny. That’s why I should say sorry for the film.
This winter I spent a lot of time watching films, more than 20. Among them, one is called “The Pianist”. Everyone who recommends it says that it will gain your tears. But what’s strange is I didn’t cry and even was not been touched. What on earth dose the film want to show us? The cruelty of the German Nazi? No, I don’t think it’s cruel enough (Maybe I dreamed 2 many bad dreams these days…); The luck of the pianist? It doesn’t mean anything! I got only one word after watching it: Ridiculous. (I deeply apologize for saying that, but it’s my true thought!) Well then, I feel for the last German officer appeared in the film. Cause I always think that the one who knows how to appreciate is greater than the one who worthies appreciation. Just as the German officer, he was an appreciator, but it’s a pity that he didn’t survive. And what about Mr. Schindler? He was a great man, too.
I don’t know how to write a film comment and I don’t want to comment simply, especially on this movie. So I think I’d best just pick some sentence from it.
I cried 3 times when watching it.
Once was when the names on Schindler’s list were spoken out by their owners themselves.
“The list is an absolute good. The list... is life. All around its margins lays the gulf.”
The other once was when Mr. Schindler declared that he would share only a short time with the workers, the last time. At that moment I considered Mr. Schindler a true man cause I think a true man never express his sorrow on his face, just as what Mr. Schindler did, as gracefully as normal, but with power.
“We've survived. Many of you have come up to me and thanked me. Thank yourselves. Thank your fearless Stern...and others among you who worried about you...and faced death at every moment. I'm a member of the Nazi party. I'm a munitions manufacturer. I'm a profiteer of slave labor. I am a criminal. At midnight you'll be free, and I'll be hunted. I shall remain with you until five minutes after midnight...after which time, and I hope you'll forgive me...I have to flee.”
The last once was when the workers said farewell to Mr. Schindler. They said “Whoever saves one life, saves the world entire.” Actually Mr.Schindler just bought lives. Maybe it’s ridiculous when life could be counted by money, but the rule is just doable out side this movie.
“I could have got more out. I could have got more. I don't know. If I just...I could have got more. If I'd made more money. I threw away so much money. If I had just...I didn't do enough. This car. Goeth would've bought this car. Why did I keep the car? Ten people right there. Ten people. Ten more people. This pin...two people. This is gold. Two more people. He would have given me two for it; at least one. He would have given me one, one more. One more person. A person, Stern. For this. I could have gotten...one more person and I didn't. And I…I didn't!”
Well, this list is a list of life, hope and light. The names on the list and their generations proudly call themselves Schindler Jews.
# by punadsmile | 2006-02-17 17:46 | 自由に話し
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